it's always good to have someone massaging you when your body is aching :)





Finally

I once made a promise that i would try my best not to be emo. And i did try my best. But it seems like "my best" is not good enough to stop these strong emotions from coming.

Yes I'm emo. it's not because i'm stressed. Stressed for what? Common tests? I didn't feel worried about H3 Final, why would i care abt CTs? SAT? i dont even know if i really want to go there. SMO? Haha...Nothing can really make me stressed now because i donn't even try to do well. I already lost my will to fight long time ago. I dont know why. I dont know how. I dont even know when i started losing it. I just know that I'm not the person i used to be anymore. Dont know if it's good or bad. I dont know many things. When was the last time i fought so hard for something and felt extremely happy when i got it?

I took the longest bath ever, in cold water, just hoping i would get sick so i could relax, take a rest and forget about the world. but again, it was not enough to bring me down. well, i'm strong! Yes, i told myself i had to be strong. A guy must be tough. Tears are for the girls. I haven't shed a tear for so long i dont even remember how to do it. emotionless? I hope not. But now i realize all these things are stupid. Who says boys cannot cry? who says boys must always be tough and strong? Why do i have to always act strong when deep down inside me, i know i'm not. My friend was crying. And i was jealous with him. I wish i could cry also.

It's so unlike me to write this. But is it really me? I know i dont make much sense now but it doesn't seem like i care much abt it. I wrote this post for me to read anyway. It's good to write all these things out. One day i will read this again and i'll laugh at myself when i realize how much of an idiot i was. Blogger please don't block my account please.

To all my friends who are the faithful followers of this blog, im' really happy and grateful to have all of you around as my friends. trust me. i know you would be worried about me. But it's okay, i'll forget about everything the moment i wake up tomorrow. I've trained myself to be someone like that, someone "strong". I would really appreciate if no one asks me anything about this. Please.


Finally. i need to change. but how? i'm smart, so i can figure that out. right?





i think i'm a very bad friend considering what happened during chem class today. but seriously i didn't know the answer!

it's good to have ms Lim back. i shall focus on being a good student instead then :)





Maths is beautiful. No. Beautiful is not the right word here. No words can really describe the beauty of Maths seriously.





i'm overwhelmed with excitement right now. i think i ought to record it down this moment or else my head will just explode.

seriously i haven't been to such a wonderful concert like this for a long time. everything was just perfect. the melody and the warmth of music, the romance, the fantasy..everything. i swear i felt my heart beat faster every time they announced the next item and i even jumped off the chair at the end of some items. if you know me well enough you know i never do that in any concert before. but this time it's just different. they really did well. i can really feel their love and passion in what they are doing and their dedication to the arts. maybe that's why they can put up such a great performance. even though i came back just in time to say goodbye to the laundry guy i would never regret going for this concert. i just wish i can watch it again. just one more time..

i felt like crying when i heard the last song and i just couldn't stop thinking of njc malaydance and wondering if our performance can be that fantastic as well. that i'm not sure but i will definitely come back and watch my juniors next year. and this time i'm sure they will make me jump off the chair one more time.

il bacio!