omg i still feel so bad for leaving my gf alone today...what can i do to make it up for her?? :( I'll cook her something nice next time if i can! I bet my cooking skill is still better than hers :D
i'm so tired after such a long day of playing. and tmr i still have to wake up early to go to some cold cold place some more!! how how? i dont want to get sick again...maybe i should bring ur picture and hopefully ur smile will warm me up :) i know it will :)
another 2 days until i can finally talk with u :):) just another 2 days! <3





recently i just started playing table tennis again. it brought back the memories of all these grueling trainings years ago, all the sweat and bruises, blood even. i just love it. it's always wonderful to do something i can really enjoy :) this morning, one of the trainers there said he remembered that i was playing here very long ago. And i was so happy to hear that because he has always been the one i looked up for. how surprisingly he can even remember a random boy like me :)

well i've been going out a bit a lot the last few days. I know it's not good because i still have the US applications to take care of. but somehow i just don't feel the urge to complete these applications. i need to do something to fill up the hole she left inside me. it's very hard though. nothing can really replace her presence. haiz how i miss her.. ytd my best friend came to my house to do the application tgt and the funny thing was that we didn't even open the common app website. We ended up talking abt life for hours. it's nice when u talk abt someone u love to others and hear the comment that you're one lucky dog. it's nice :) I really think i am the lucky dog though. I hope i won't screw up and let this golden opportunity slips away. i dont think i can find someone like her ever again.

come back fast..





today was a hectic day.

i slept for 5 hours then i took a 4 hours SAT paper. after walking around orchard road for 2 hours i decided to go back and play soccer for another 3 hours.

and it's 3 am now. i'm just back from Mr Eli's room where we had fun playing a lot of card games. i had so much fun and laughter to the point that i think my 6 packs are clearer now. but only after walking out of the door could i really feel how exhausted i was. yet i'm still here writing useless things on my blog. uhm well actually they are not totally useless. one day when i look back at these posts, i think i can say "hey i was pretty playful and awesome last time". uhm i know i'm awesome most of the time. but not now. now i'm just tired..

today was an exciting day. so many thing happened. but i can say for certain the best moment of the day was when i opened my mail box and i received an mail from this person. a wonderful email. i was so happy and touch at the same time. thank you :) you know who you are :)

things around me are going on too fast. i can't control things the way i did last time. is it just me or the situation is getting worse ? haha i dont know. i shall just enjoy my life for the time being then :) let's hope for more hectic days to come.