recently i just started playing table tennis again. it brought back the memories of all these grueling trainings years ago, all the sweat and bruises, blood even. i just love it. it's always wonderful to do something i can really enjoy :) this morning, one of the trainers there said he remembered that i was playing here very long ago. And i was so happy to hear that because he has always been the one i looked up for. how surprisingly he can even remember a random boy like me :)

well i've been going out a bit a lot the last few days. I know it's not good because i still have the US applications to take care of. but somehow i just don't feel the urge to complete these applications. i need to do something to fill up the hole she left inside me. it's very hard though. nothing can really replace her presence. haiz how i miss her.. ytd my best friend came to my house to do the application tgt and the funny thing was that we didn't even open the common app website. We ended up talking abt life for hours. it's nice when u talk abt someone u love to others and hear the comment that you're one lucky dog. it's nice :) I really think i am the lucky dog though. I hope i won't screw up and let this golden opportunity slips away. i dont think i can find someone like her ever again.

come back fast..